i think i'll make it

my name is heather and today i am 21.

this past year, in june 2012, my mother passed away and i’ve been stuck in a slump of depression since. i’ll be honest - i haven’t been quite myself anymore, or felt like the person i used to be. i’ve hid away from a the world for a while, as best as i could at least.

i have many regrets and i’m only just now legally able to drink alcohol but i’ve been burying my sadness in that and more. and yet i have people who have stood by me still.

i’m meeting one of those people today. someone who i knew from when i was younger but only since late 2011 started to actually get to know. he’s not perfect and we’ve had our struggles, but he’s a great guy who manages to bring a smile to my face no matter what. i’m nervous and excited. i don’t know if i’ll be able to sleep.

i’m tired of the slump i’ve been in. some parts of me will never quite heal, but i feel like things could change for the better. today could change my life.

i don’t know what the future holds for me, but i think i’m getting stronger. i think i’ll make it.